Hell and Heaven - A Theory

I am a male chauvinist, I guess, from my childhood. I don't deny it but I am not proud of it either. So, all my theories revolve around the concept of male species being dominant over the other. My recent theory regarding Hell and Heaven is also a similar story.

I believe in Nature. I also believe that, she takes care of balancing everything; Seasons, predator-prey life cycles, and Gender ratio. By now, you must have understood why there are girls in heaven in the form of ANGELs. If not, let me tell you why. Because, all men from earth go to heaven, she needs to take care of the Gender ratio in heaven. In similar lines, Hell is full of male devils. And again, you may ask me -- why should there be ANGELs in heaven rather than normal girls? Oh c'mon -- this is pretty simple again and it also is a balancing act of Nature. She wants us to experience the side of the female gender, (gentle, caring, beautiful, cheerful), which we(male humans) wouldn't have seen in Earth! And similarly, she created devils with characteristics that are not found in male gender living in Earth!

:)

EGO - Good or Bad?

Everyone I know, sound this word as if it's got a negative connotation. But, I would argue that EGO is a word everyone should look at positively and if possible, respect the people who have this in abundance ala Noble people. What EGO, to me anyway, a way to let your identity take course of the action and speak it's attitude out to the whole world. EGO is respecting yourself beyond the courtesy and fear of consequences. Lesser people (who have less EGO :)) speak courteously and obey the commands of higher people(who have more Ego) because they fear the consequences and fear that they are inferior. But, really what they are inferior is in their Ego Quotient (EQ). Because, there are more lesser-people in this world than the higher-people, they brandished the word ego to mean a negative implication. But seriously, if you are not self centered and egoistic, you are not really doing anything worth your stay on Earth!

Relationship Conundrums!

I have never been good at relationships and I don't think I ever will be! Doesn't matter though as long as I am able to enjoy my solitary attitude! But, with the limited experience of looking at people around me living in this relationships, I view it as a conundrum!


Now, I know a pair who are in this so called amazing relationship for a few years and yet don't take it forward and I know another set of people who, though spent very little time together, are ready to take the plunge and are ready to take the relationship to the next level.I do not, yet, understand on what basis, do they take this decision to stick where they are or take that leap forward!


Coming to the first case; they miss each other, they make the other person smile, laugh, enjoy the company, make fun of each other, they look like destined to be together (atleast for me though!) and yet they choose not to take the relationship forward. I wonder whether they remain just the same when one of them gets married and not regret the decision they have taken to be "Just Friends!". I wonder, after a couple of years, when they look back at the time spent together, would they ever think, "Oh no, I should have taken the leap forward!".

And with regards to the second set, though they know each other for a very short while (long distant relationship), they were ready to get married and spend the rest of their lives together.I always wonder on what basis have they chosen to take the decision to commit to the other person! They have spent very little time together, they might not know everything about the other person, they might not have had as many quarrels with each other to better understand how one reacts when they are aroused(;)). I hope, with utmost sincerity, that they stick together and have a great life together!


And there is another set of people, like me, who have developed so much phobia towards relationships that they cannot commit to someone and stick to that person for long.  They live in their own rat holes and think that they are so happy alone and stay that way! :-)

I hope, someday, I would be able to solve this labyrinthine conundrum!

Career Directions Since BITS - 2

My mental state in the third year has been utter mayhem. Chaos surrounded my every action. Didn't know which course to take. Didn't know which direction to follow. First Medicinal Chemistry, then Pharmaceutics, then Computer Science, then again Medicinal Chemistry, then Instrumental Methods of Analysis... Uff. I didn't want my life to be like this. I don't even know how I wanted my life to be. But I know that this is not what I wanted. I finished the third year with so much confusion though my cgpa improved like hell without much assistance from my side, I am still spoilt for choice.

Then came the fourth year and first crushing blow in my life. I think it's the only crushing blow in my life. Everything seemed hard and everyone looked ugly. I lacked self confidence, I lacked morale. That was the worst phase of my life. And through it, I have decided to drop that M.Pharm vertical transfer, thus becoming the first (and may be only) candidate to reject the vertical transfer(that is conferred to me after my first year).

Wow. Good or bad, a decision has been taken. A big step from indecisiveness. Final semester of my BITSian life. First job offer. Not much joy though. A thesis under Computer Science professor, known to be a good man. some vetti thrill. got close to some. got away from more. within no time, time has come to say adios. tears flowed down the cheeks, heart wished to stay, mind numbing feeling. say whatever you want, the time you have to leave the place which taught you so much is the unforgettable moment. Packed everything. got into the bus with my eyes moist and my journey into no-dreams land started.

---to be continued!

About Myself!

When you become what you are, you will do what you can do!

Set Theory in Life!

Whenever I think of relationship, be it friendship, marriage or anything for that matter, I always think of Set Theory! Let me explain. If I call myself set A and the other person set B, there's an intersection area between both of us. There is A-B and there is B-A. There's also U - (AUB) space. Fortunately, I have found some very good friends who realized there's a space A-B and never tried to make A a subset of B and didn't even try to decrease the size of A-B space. 

I have a fear that, there comes a time, when I may have to share my life with a person who might not understand my set theory and try to behave like either A is a subset of B or B is a subset of A or even worse, A=B! Yeah, I know, I am little crazy, but I'm never wrong! :)

Unbridled Emotions!

Last week, when I went for that oh so adventurous night-trek to Scanda Giri, due to my poor nocturnal eye-sight, I went straight through bushes. After a couple of minutes, when I got a breather to check how affected my calf muscles are after the incident, I spotted two dots spaced exactly by some distance to throw an impression of snake-bite. Being a timid and a faint-hearted guy I am, I was scared to death and felt that those would be my last minutes. Even the well experienced guide's could not assuade me to think positively. After half an hour, I started to feel dizzy and though it has got nothing to do with the thorny-snake bite, I felt for sure those are my final few breaths. Instead of panicking(Oh, a very good situation handler I am - though I am scared to death), I thought out what to do in those final few minutes. How much ever I focussed, only ONE thing came to my mind. That stark revelation was just the kind of thing I wanted in my life. It told me how much I really take those things for granted, that I should never have ignored in the first place. It told me how much I take my father's love for granted!

Imagine the struggle a father goes through when he sends his son for higher studies to far off places just so that the son gets what he wanted, even though the father can't leave the son. The father thinks 24X7 about how to enrich his son's life and the son doesn't even care to call him once a week! If in case, the son has a girl friend(fortunately or unfortunately, that's a different story), the amount of time he devotes to his dad would be around 2-5% of the time he devotes to his career and girl friend put together. Everytime, the father sees an article in the newspaper talking about recession in IT industry in a remote country like Sumatra, he starts to get worried about his son's career being threatened. This is the kind of unconditional love that the fathers have for their sons. But still, sons show their irritation when fathers show that extra amount of care that they think their sons deserve.  

I am not arguing that sons do not have love towards their father. What I am saying is, they do not express it and put their father son relationship in jeopardy! What I am saying is, tell your dad how much you love him before it's too late! Tell him everything that you always wanted to tell but could never tell because of one or ther other reason! Let nothing come in between! May be after a couple of decades when you are in your dad's position, don't let a situation come, where you regret for treating your father the way your son is treating you now! 

Note: If you don't agree with what I have written here, either you are the one true son every father wants to have or you don't have the guts to accept what you are.